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Expecting again… Whose idea was this?

Recently I was asked to write a post for www.Meetothermums.com and I thought I would share it with you too.

Well this time next year I will hopefully have two children, a 2 year old and a six month old baby. Yep, I am pregnant! I just need to remind myself who’s idea was this? It now seems slightly crazy!
With my 1st pregnancy I remember that anxious feeling, what will it be like having someone rely on you for EVERYTHING? How will I cope knowing that It is my responsibility in keeping this mini person alive? Scary thoughts. But it all worked out in the end, the nervousness turned to excitement in the last trimester and I just couldn’t wait to meet my baby.

Now this time around the apprehension has doubled, how will I keep 2 children alive? My god I barely feel like I keep myself going some days! That is probably the morning sickness and tiredness talking but it really does feel that way sometimes, but I know this time that it is all normal to feel like this and actually it is going to be exciting! Yes, stressful at times, and exhausting, but fun at the same time. And I now know how worth it is having a child! Something I have gained since my first pregnancy.

During my first pregnancy I suffered from HG and was considerably poorly, I barely ate or drank anything for the first 4 months or so and had to have medication to control the vomiting. You can imagine the fear I felt considering I was risking it all over again when we decided to have baby number 2! I have been extremely lucky and actually got away with just morning sickness (I am not be littleing “just” morning sickness at all, believe me I have felt naff this last few months so I feel your pain! But it really isn’t the same level of pain as I had the first time around), the nausea has been difficult and exhausting but I have come through the worst of it, I hope. 

There is a very high chance that if you have had HG before then you are likely to suffer again, but I was one of the very lucky, rare ladies who haven't. Now don't get me wrong it is awful, and I have struggled, I am in bed by 8.30pm every single night, I rarely see my husband once I have put Daisy to bed, the list of frustrations could go on. BUT I AM FEELING EXTREMELY LUCKY!!!

The difference with this pregnancy has also been that I have a toddler to look after and love, I will be honest I have so much help available with looking after Daisy but making myself get up and do it myself, enjoying time with her so doing things like swimming lessons still really did help. It didn't feel like it at times, when I'm sat retching at the thought of having to cook her tea and getting in the car to go somewhere when I'm feeling so naff but it really did help in those early days. And having her reminds me that it certainly is worth it! How easy it will be as this pregnancy progresses I am not sure, I forgot how exhausting pregnancy really is, never mind chasing a pesky toddler all over the place!

The only other thing that is really panicking me is that I have to get this baby out! Getting Daisy into this world was not the easiest task I have ever set myself, it involved days and days of labour, epidurals, vomiting, screaming, losing consciousness, assisted deliveries, the dreaded episiotomy and having my lady bits “fixed”, delightful. I just can’t wait to do that again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

However much I laugh or joke, I can’t tell you how truly grateful I am for the opportunity!

Bump #2 Pregnancy diary: Weeks 10-14

It really feels like yesterday that I sat and wrote the last update at 10 weeks, and in fact that was 4 whole weeks ago. Crazy. In some weird ways I feel like I have been sick and getting slightly "curvier" (that is right - not fat!!) for a lifetime, but on the other hand it is flying by. I guess that is life with a toddler and being so distracted by life that you could almost forget you had a little person growing inside you. I say almost because I still have that reminder once a day or so that they are there, every time I look into the bottom of that toilet - delightful!

Pleased to say though that the sickness has subsided slightly, the nausea too. I am probably sick once a day, usually during the night and that I can deal with. In one tiny way I actually quite like the reminder that my hormones are doing their job and looking after my baby like they should be, especially as I am still yet to feel proper full on movement in my tummy. The nausea isn't with me all day every day now, which is a relief. In a morning I feel rotten but once I have had my breakfast - toast, it is the only thing that will cut it, then I feel fine. I know as soon as I start to feel yuck that it is time to eat again, little and often. And now this tends to be just before a proper meal time rather than every hour!!!

I am also thirsty again - hooray! Which means I can have a proper drink without feeling horrible and it doesn't have to be ice cold anymore! Which just was not practical. Although I do still love the clinking of that ice! 

Talking about movement, I have actually started to feel turns or waves or bubbles what every you want to call them. It is not predictable and it is not all that frequent, but probably once a day, usually in the night or at bedtime I can feel that familiar little pushing sensation, so light and gentle but reassuring. I am looking forward to the days when I can feel it from the outside and actively encourage it! 

So we had our 12 week scan and baby was looking good. We have since had an appointment with a consultant who we saw during my last pregnancy, he checked baby's limbs over to ensure all was looking right and checked organs as much as he could. This was obviously an additional scan to most people but is due to Daisy's hand being identified early on in our last pregnancy. If you haven't read that post, catch up on it here. It has been such a relief to see all is looking like it should! The only thing we haven't been able to see properly is the little ones face, sleeping babies, face down aren't all that helpful!! 

I have grown a little bit this past week I think, but still I could get away with not being pregnant. I am sure my tummy looks bigger some days than others, I guess it is positioning of the baby and maybe what I have ate  etc? 

I will pop a photo in here for you! 

So I don't have much else to report on really, I am looking to do a VLOG update on my YouTube channel later this week/ early next week where I may chat a little more :)

Lots of love, 

A not so sick,  Hayley xxx