I am finding this pregnancy relatively tricky, in that I have never felt 100%, I have had sickness, aches pains and just felt naff. I also haven't found it easy with a toddler to chase around after and wake up to in the night (when she doesn't feel like sleeping herself!). I know they all really trivial in the grand scheme of things, there is no major complaint there, but it doesn't mean that I personally have had the time of my life being pregnant this time. Don't get me wrong, like I have said many times before I am truly grateful to be pregnant and cooking this little boy, I really am.
I have often thought I would like 3 children, all relatively close in age. It just seemed like a good number and I guess the house would always be lively and hopefully happy, the more children there are the busier it would be! But after having the lovely news of having a boy this time after a gorgeous little girl, Daisy it has got me wondering, would I really want 3?
Daisy Bump (30 weeks) - Baby boy Bump (26 weeks) |
It was never something we decided on, or even discussed really. Just something I had in my mind I guess at some point. But then I have this sudden sadness, will this be my last pregnancy? And if so have I / am I really cherishing it enough? I haven't gone in to this pregnancy thinking this will be the last time I see a little baby pop up on that ultrasound screen, the last time my belly goes pop into a bump or the last time the dainty little flutters in my tummy turn into full blown kicks and rolls that make me wince and laugh when they make me jump! And well maybe I should have.
Because I guess even if you decide to take the plunge and have that third, well who knows if it will possible. You just don't know really what is laid out for your future. A little deep today, but something I wonder if other people think about too?
I suppose all I can do for now is to start to drink up this pregnancy and enjoy it as much as I can!
Hayley xx